Change Is A Big Thing.....
I told myself after college I would get better at blog clearly this hasn't worked but I have been working most days from when I left college.
A lot has change in them few months I haven't been at college thing like people around me moving on and make more for themselves from changing job to working it high position a lot have people have left at once at my work and so a lot had to change which made me feel vulnerable.
I felt like this because some of these people I have worked with from the start of the place opening (which is 2 years) and now there off doing bigger and better things for themselves which is great but this all made me think of change and how I handle change (which isn't very well).
First the panic set in that these people where leaving and I would go from seeing them all more everyday to once a month or less, which made me feel like everyone was leaving and it was just going to be and I have to meet all new people.
Second came the realisation that not everyone was leaving and the people that were leaving were doing what was best for them in the long run but I would still have to meet new people the thing I hate I fear this so much and it's not seeing people face to face that scary to me it the fact I have to make conversation and it's going to be awkward because I'm so bad at it.
Then it was meeting the new people which wasn't as bad as I thought it would be but I still hate it and I will try stay out of it as much as I possible can I feel like everyone has something they are scary of or just don't like doing sometimes you can't divert them forever and you will have to do them at some point.
so this is all I have for today post I will try and post more but we all now what happen last time I send that but i will leave on this note you are ALWAYS going to have to do the things you don't like and that you are scared of you can't get around them every time you can try but it will not work.
A lot has change in them few months I haven't been at college thing like people around me moving on and make more for themselves from changing job to working it high position a lot have people have left at once at my work and so a lot had to change which made me feel vulnerable.
I felt like this because some of these people I have worked with from the start of the place opening (which is 2 years) and now there off doing bigger and better things for themselves which is great but this all made me think of change and how I handle change (which isn't very well).
First the panic set in that these people where leaving and I would go from seeing them all more everyday to once a month or less, which made me feel like everyone was leaving and it was just going to be and I have to meet all new people.
Second came the realisation that not everyone was leaving and the people that were leaving were doing what was best for them in the long run but I would still have to meet new people the thing I hate I fear this so much and it's not seeing people face to face that scary to me it the fact I have to make conversation and it's going to be awkward because I'm so bad at it.
Then it was meeting the new people which wasn't as bad as I thought it would be but I still hate it and I will try stay out of it as much as I possible can I feel like everyone has something they are scary of or just don't like doing sometimes you can't divert them forever and you will have to do them at some point.
so this is all I have for today post I will try and post more but we all now what happen last time I send that but i will leave on this note you are ALWAYS going to have to do the things you don't like and that you are scared of you can't get around them every time you can try but it will not work.
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